My "best" friend has always had a problem with my fiance. I have heard that he feels like she has taken me away from him. Childish I know. Anyway, the other day before we were going out for a few drinks he came over to my house for a few drinks with my younger brother.

I welcomed them into my house and as they walked into my front room, my finace said "hello" to both of them. My best friend ignored her.

I got them both a beer and asked them to take a seat. He said he would prefer to stand (in the middle of the front room)!

My finace then offered to give us a lift into town, on the way there, he bumped his head on the roof of the car as we went over a speed bump. I heard him whisper "bitch" to my younger brother. (This was said in a 'jokey' way but I don't find it very funny when he is not even polite enough to say hello). I told him he was pissing me off already and to get out; he stayed in the car but also stayed quiet for the rest of the journey.

THEN!!... At the bar, he was showing me a joke on his phone when I noticed another text underneath. It was about my finace from a mutual friend (just asking if she was in the house). I checked his sent box and found out that whilst he was in my house he had text this friend saying how bored he was. He also had the cheek to text my younger brother who was there saying "see how she doesn't speak to me."

We had a row, he went home early and has since called me and apologised. I told him that if he can't guarantee he will be polite now, in the future and at the wedding then he can't be an usher. Fair enough?

I have recently found that a lot of people are pissing me off, they just seem to do what they want to benefit themselves, their social position or just for an ego boost and don't give a damn how this affects other people. Do I expect too much from people? Are they in the minority? Should I have stopped him being an usher? Maybe I have just been unlucky with my choice of friend? Maybe as we have grown up, we have grown apart?

For those of you who read my last post you will know what a tough year my fiance has had. She deserves respect despite this but you would think he could make an effort taking this into account!!

Aaaah...Needed to get that off my chest!!!

Thought I would start a blog as I can never be bothered to get a pen out and write a diray but seem to always have time to go on the internet!

What a year!

In January last year I moved into a rented apartment with my girlfriend, proposed to her in September(she accepted), bought our first house together in January this year, we are planning on getting married in July this year and we now have a baby on the way; due in early January. We had the 12 week scan last week and everything is perfect with no worries at all!

Sadly, my finacee lost her mum to cancer in November last year, so whilst all of these things should fill us with absolute joy and happiness, there is still a feeling of sadness and of course loss hanging over us. I and my partner believe that her Mum is looking down on us and that it is a miracle that we managed to conceive at such a time. (As did my brother-in-law to be and his wife. The due dates of our babies are only 2 days apart).

It is my Mums 50th birthday this week and we have arranged a suprise party for her. I am looking forward to it but always feel for my fiancee as I'm sure that these events only act as reminders of her loss. She is not bitter but as the vicar explained yesterday when he came to talk to us about getting married, she has "had a pasting!" She is the most beautiful, strongest, caring person I have ever met and I know she will be a great mum and she desreves all the hapinesss in the world.

I will be keeping an online diary of everything from our wedding planning, our wedding day, future baby scans, the birth of our baby, our babies progress, my views on current topics and anything else that comes to mind. I look forward to hearing what you have to say too. Thanks.